the last 3 maybe 4 years have been erm a mess a car crash a new development involving my mother cancer related frankly I could write a book and still not have enough time or resources to explain the circumstances I see or deal with on a daily basis. shit happens and it seems to do its thing around me . now I had a plan about a week ago to do something sadly as I stated at he start of this that plan sadly went down a drain pipe and might ultimately not return bigger and more important things are going on for me and my family and iam going to use the term m familys because your all apart of my family for me at least those that know me well and those that do not dont worry to much ive been a bit out of the music world for a few months this is not related to my moms issues or situation this was because me and sue were and are dealing with being grand parents and some other stuff junior is due November and frankly family comes first so going forward who knows a lot of crap is going on and I dont really have answers at the moment everything is a bit pie in the sky for me this wont answer enough questions iam afraid there are not a lot of a questions I can answer due to the fact iam not sure what to say or respond to due to the fact that half the time some medical crap comes into our lives and I only found out most of  it Saturday  still working it all out  so much I want to say but frankly not sure how to word it or seem like a normal person right now .